DONE DONE DONE!!!!!

good grief, the weekend was just simply crazy. can't believe it. a gazillion things to do. in particular, bio IA, econs IA, and guess what that effing math portfolio. and guess what, they're all done now. ok i realize this is turning out to be a really pointless post because everyone out there's probably like, 'ok so what, i finished it a week ago.' but i don't care. just such a relief to get those thingies over and done with!!!!!!!!!

arghhhh it's already week 10!! it's this sort of dreaded feeling that hits you really hard, you realize time, does indeed fly. this is crazy. seriously. i'm forever rushing, rushing here, there, rushing to meet deadlines, rushing to.......and there's really no time to stop and take stock of life, you know, stuff like reflect on your life sort of thing. it's like i'm not living in the moment, if i correctly understand that =/ i feel like, erm, i'm not living, just existing. life and time just floats by ever so discreetly, and i'm caught in the web of modern life?? i don't know if i'm putting it very accurately, but well. basically like, i'm just so caught up in the micro aspects of life, like you know, meeting deadlines, doing those dreaded IAs etc, and i lose sight of the macro aspects. and yeah, of course, that reminds me that while economics is already at macroeconomics, i'm still struggling to understand the market structure in microeconomics. ah wells..

and like, the olympics man. throughout this time, i've been so busy with this and that, and doing work and all, and i actually didn't have time to watch the olympics. ok maybe like, a bit here and there? altogether definitely not more than 30 mins of olympic action. and i can hardly believe it man. it's crazy. the whole olympic juggernaut, with its pomp and splendour and action athletes and all, just passed by. and i simply could not make time to watch. ok this is really saddening me. enough.

and today, there was this TOK thingy again. the way i see it, ok i agree these things are good, generally. as in, they are indeed enriching, maybe sometimes interesting, intriguing. but dude, why now???!!! you know, being to close to exams and all...sigh... then it becomes a waste of time. so what is a good life? haha when i first saw it, so many of those angsty, rebellious things came to mind. a life without school. a life without work, etc etc. then after a while, i felt a little emo. like, wth i just burnt more of life away doing the dumb math portfolio and IAs and all, and then you ask me, what is a good life. ok i know this appears retarded but aiyah, you don't get lah. somehow it just spoke to me that way.

"The good life, as i conceive it, is a happy life. I do not mean that if you are good, you will be happy; i mean that if you are happy you will be good." -Bertrand Russell.
blah. coming from a guy who gets high on math. (wth???!!!!) (not a reliable source)