yet, in the midst of my contemporary urban life, i periodically need the warm comfort of the simpler things in life.

i want to walk around looking fine and dandy, just for the fun of it. i don't have to want to go anywhere in particular, i just want to hang and chill with people i want to chill with.

i also want to laze around without feeling that i'm wasting time. i want to just sit or lie somewhere and just let the thoughts and emotions flow uninhibited. i don't want to feel the need to curb anger, or suppress sorrow.

just why is this society such a complicated one? why is it so developed, yet so immature? why is everyone so complex and un-innocent and unfeeling and unhuman? why do we construct so many firm barriers between ourselves? i want to be able to tell loved ones that i love and appreciate them, without eliciting shock and queer responses from them. i want to be able to express affection without inviting scandalous gossip and whispered rumours. i want to be able to tell people about the impact they've made on me and what they mean to me, without making them feel uneasy or wary.

"Our Father who art in Heaven
Come down here and make your presence known
We can't do it on our own
The lunatics let run the asylum
How can we find peace inside your home
When you can't trust your own"