life truly has been terribly draining. physically, emotionally, mentally. any other way you can think of. however, as much as i complain and feel depressed about my posting and the life there, i can't help but keep wondering if the problem lies with just me, or for that matter, just this few of us stuck here, or if pastures elsewhere truly are greener.

but certainly, the place has to take at least some of the blame, if not most. this is where i'm truly experiencing the military lifestyle clothed in and slathered with all its full glory, brusque, vulgar people and all. add the work demands, difficult people, lack of freedom and friends etc etc, and there you have it. receipe for ______.

but enough of this, really. anyway, the full extent of these problems is way beyond what i am able to put into words and include in a blog post. to the few people going through this with me and understanding what it is like, thanks for your support and presence. just as how you most certainly appreciate mine, haha.

i'm rather disappointed at how my Singapore 2010 YOG experience was pretty much stunted and ruined simply by being a NSF. y'know what i mean. not being able to go out and appreciate the events, soak in the atmosphere etc. what more is there to say.

having some pretty major field exercise this coming week, sigh. i really hope to be able to find some time and energy to get in a few runs, some gym visits.