haha glancing at the march page of my calendar recently, it suddenly dawned on me that from this year on, my calendar is going to be much duller and less uhhh.. exciting to look at.

yes, i just realized how much i'm going to miss those thin and inconspicuous lines of yellow/blue/etc appearing on my calendar every march, june, september and november/december. sighhhh. for 12 straight years (or is it kindergarten as well haha) i've been subconsciously eagerly awaiting the arrival of the holidays, and now, cruelly and cold-heartedly stripped away from me, i feel the impact of the void. hahaha.. it's like so...weird. all these years my life has been organized around four terms divided by those yellow/blue/etc morsels of respite from the routine of school.... and now, it's just...an ENDLESS ABYSS of never-ending darkness. HAHAHA. so drama.

haiz i think especially in the more recent years, i've been under-appreciating my holidays, always complaining that there's so much "holiday homework" (which i still believe is the greatest oxymoron ever but ANYWAYSZ) so what's the point of the hols. sure, that's true, indeed there's been lots of work to be done during the "holidays" (note the inverted commas), with the IB and all that shizz. in fact, if i remember correctly, lots of sad people like me were looking forward to the holidays cos that's when we could get our EETOKIA (hahaha omg, sweet memories -.-) done more quickly without having to "waste time going to school". lol, the insanity and illogicality of school life.

BUT STILL, even with all this nonsense waiting to be done during the "holidays", on hindsight, simply by providing a relief from the daily mundane routine of dragging myself out of my ever-so-possessive bed and to school at hours too early for comfort, these holiday periods should have been appreciated better. sigh. compared to now, when the "holiday" i look forward to is TWO YEARS down the road.

mann, i do miss school life :X