i'm really starting to feel that work is seriously getting in the way of forging bonds and maintaining existing ones. i just worry that in the midst of this crazy whirlwind of IB, there won't be time or energy to do anything other than work work work work and work. relationships deteriorate and health suffers. i really don't want to become so caught up in work that i lose sight of everything else. and i really don't want to lose people who are dear to me in that merciless maelstrom of EE, TOK, IAs, hardcore mugging and the like.

every day now feels like such a terrible drudgery. lessons, along with faces, simply float past and it gets really tiring. clichéd as it sounds, i want to get away from it all. but it's so impossible. it's all or nothing.