'Passion to learn, will to overcome, attitude to excel, spirit to serve'

i spotted this motto/vision whatever on a primary school bus. and i was like, wow. somehow, something about it just made me stop and think. haha omg, i realized i possess none of the above. =x ok MAYBE a bit of the second and third, but sigh, i dunno... so what if i have the will and attitude. i still don't overcome, and i still don't excel. i would really love to think i'm demanding too much of myself, being too hard on myself. but.

today, the speaker mentioned something that really resonated very deeply within me. he pointed out that deep down within us, we all want to be loved, to be wanted, and to be someone to somebody. now, i'm usually not a very good note-taker, and i often struggle to catch the salient points at sermons and lectures, but when i heard this, i immediately jotted it down. boy, how apt, how apt. that's exactly how i've constantly been feeling recently, especially this year. indeed, i think all of us have this intrinsic desire to be a significant part of someone else, we want to be important to others and we want them to be able to look to us for comfort, for reassurance, and pretty much everything and anything else. of course, not all of us will be able to constantly be such a pillar of strength and support. many times, we fail in our attempts to be that somebody to those around us, and instead of love, care and concern which we crave, we may be subjected to disdain and contempt from those around us. we then start to think about how and why we've failed, and we begin to lose confidence and we start to doubt overselves. that's when the all-too-familiar feeling of insecurity sets in, making us so emotional and irrational.

i don't think i've ever pondered so deeply regarding this issue, and i really must thank pastor danny for sparking this train of thought. i think i see the picture clearer now and hopefully, this will restrain me from lapsing into all those emotionally-draining moments of self-doubt and what nots.......