sighhh. 2 weeks into this CQ course, i'm already feeling drained and devoid of any enthusiasm. the endless dreary lectures are even more boring and dry and draggy than my economics or english lectures! and one big problem is that in school, there were lots of avenues to do research and refer to books, the internet and even teachers, while here, it's like the only source of information is the lectures themselves. which are so hard to stay awake in. haiz. and i just can't find the motivation to be even the least bit interested in the content. oh wells, but i guess i'd better not rant and rave too much here, cos well y'know, sensitivity issues...

but i feel that in the larger scheme of things, there's a more pressing issue. well i'm not sure how to let it all out here, but i hope God will show me what to do. God please guide me and help me be what You want me to be for You. perhaps i should thank God, for making me feel this responsibility to be an example for those around me, especially this particular friend. i think maybe God has placed him in my life to remind me of the importance of being a good testimony for Him through my words, thoughts and actions, although certainly, i've a long way to go mann...damn -.-

well i hope that in the coming weeks, i will be able to prepare well for my CQ vocation. i pray that even in the midst of the rough and tumble of military life, Lord You will always be foremost in my life, and guide me in my dealings with the world.

also to all y'guys out there as well, take care and (try to) enjoy!

cya mann..