the past few days have been really tumultuous for me, and i can imagine it's going to be like that for a huge part of the rest of the year, with IOC, and of course THE BIG ONE =X

also, i feel that over the past few days, i've seen many different sides of many people, and some of the experiences certainly haven't been too pleasant. however, i feel like i've matured since, uhm, idk, some time back, and i think i notice myself being able to deal with unsavoury people and experiences better. where in the past i would dwell on things way too much, and let them overly affect me, i think i now see things in a different light, and i feel like i'm more able to accept unpleasant things as normal and part of the larger scheme of things. i think (and hope) i'm able to brush them off a lot more lightly now, and realize that many of these things really do not matter, and i should not let them bother me.

also, there are a few bad habits i need to cut out. like being such a perfectionist. sometimes, it really goes over the top and hinders my progess, and it becomes counter-productive.

i'm also noticing many pesky "growing up" habits like being affected by peer pressure, being overly concerned by how people see me and what they think of me, and trying too hard to "fit", and the like. i think if left unacknowledged and uncontrolled, these things have the potential to become really serious. so i want to watch myself.

for the lack of a better ending,

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand, and show you that you can.
There are no boundaries,
There are no boundaries.

haha, i just randomly found this very random video on the arsenal website. i found it so funny, like, it's just so random and weird, lol.


it's just damn funny watching him talk like that hahaha...he's like so tired and bored about everything ><

eh, but i still think gallas is damn cool okay!

apparently this term is supposed to be freer, with all the IAs, EE, TOK........gone. but mann, no way man.

that geog IA is honestly ______. it's turning into such a farce, i'm becoming numb to all the repeated reminders to submit. EE too. blah. and there's just so many irritating details required to take note of when trying to do up my CAS file.

oh. and then there's the small issue of results. hah, i'm sorry, i really don't know what to say or make of it really. i'm not even gonna bother to sound angry or sad or emo or anything 'cuz it's just beyond any form of description at all.

okay, then there's IOC. enough said.

life. sigh, life.

recently, i've been noticing a sudden huge surge of interest in anything to do with our dear friend michael jackson. michael jackson craze is seriously present big time everywhere. all the shops are playing his music, news of him is everywhere in the papers, in the news, on the internet...my friends are watching his videos on youtube and falling madly in love with him...

i think it's just so sad that it had to take his death for people to finally realize what they had not treasured all this while. friends are watching his interviews and telling me "ohh so sad, his life was so pitiful.." and so on. oh wellsz.

anyway...enjoy!

the other day, i saw a random moth resting on a ledge in my doorway. and i wanted to get rid of it, 'cuz i was about to sleep and i didn't want it flying around in the dark and possibly brushing me in the process. insects are urghh :/

so i was brainstorming all the possible ways of getting rid of it. after consideration, i decided to use my super duper power fan. that fan is insane i tell you. it's so powerful i don't like using it. it blows my papers all over and makes it hard to get anything done. it's one of those stand fans that lets you select levels one to three, and even level one is ridiculously powerful. i thought, that's certainly gonna get that moth moving in a hurry. so i took out that behemoth of a fan, set it at the highest fan speed possible (which is probably comparable to a mini hurricane), and blasted it straight at the revolting thing.

the wings and feelers and everything started flapping furiously in all directions like crazy...but the retarded moth clung on. i was like, what the! its wings were flapping around like the flag you see high in the sky at the national day parade, and still, it clung on to the ledge.

determined to remove its wretched presence, i carried the fan and brought it even closer to the thing. the gust was blasting straight at the moth, its wings looked as if they were about to fall off any moment, its feelers were vibrating more than a, well a whateverrrrr... and still, it clung on for dear life, refusing to budge. i'm standing there scratching my head and thinking what the pong is wrong with this idiot of a moth. instead of using all its energy to stubbornly cling on to that miserable ledge, why doesn't it just fly away and go somewhere else where it can rest properly, instead of fighting against some evil force trying desperate to blow it off the face of the earth! leave me alone mann!

in the end, i gave up. a measly miserable moth triumphed over me and my hurricane of a fan. lol -.-